She should be gone...

I know you feel helpless now...

I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone. Thats the same road that I'm on...

At least one time in your life you will lose the person that you think changed you the most or that you feel the most attached to. When that happens it hurts. It is the most painful thing to have to go through: knowing that you will NEVER be that happy with another person again. Sometimes you try to get past it and smile but its just not the same. You see them at the store...at school...at work...You here a song you once made love to...You smell thier purfume on your pillow and you know that no matter what you do or say it will not fix what has happened or what was said. But you stay consistant. You still feel down deep the love you felt during your relationship. You want nothing more than one more night...one more smile...one more glance...one more kiss...Then eventually they turn into just another face in the crowd...The only problem is that their face is the crowd. Every face you see turns to theirs...every voice is theirs...

Thats the road I'm on...

well i just got home from the mall...i went with Hannah and Keegen (sorry if thats spelled wrong don't kill me!!! eek!!) and Ashley and James and Evan....we saw Date Movie and like I said before we went it sucks...if it wasnt for the fact that they wanted to see it I wouldnt have paid to go see it again....we got out and Hannah was like "Yeah, you were right. That movie sucks..." So if yall are looking to go see a movie don't go see Date Movie cause its not what it was cracked up to be...

Ummmmm...other than that theres not alot to update on excepted the fact that before I went to the mall I went to Target and got the 10 Years Cd...OMFG!!! I love this CD with a passion!!! Also while i was there they have the Panic! at the Disco Cd for $9.99 so if any of you are looking to get it thats where you should go....that or you can give me a BLANK CD-R and I can copy it for you! Whatever floats your boat and helps you find your lost remote!

Anyway, other than the fact that I'm surper tired theres not a lot going on!

Waking Up (3 mins 13 secs)

Distance and space allow emotions to age into faith

Our bodies may end up alone but close

Are you there can you hear me

Are you there can you feel me

Just in the way all your fingertips touch me

They are healing

One day we'll all fall prey

Chorus

Waking up good morning to you my dear

I'm waking up enduring my biggest fears of

Distance away (a weight) distance away

Chorus

Waking up good morning to you my dear

I'm waking up enduring my biggest fear love

my '06 so far!

So Far, In 2006, I Have...
[x] broken a promise.
[x] made a new friend.
[x] fell in love
[ ] fell out of love
[x] done something you swore never to do (worst mistake ever)
[x] lied
[ ] stole
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[x] gotten in a fight
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[x] drank myself retarded
[x] lost someone close to you
[ ] been to the hospital
[x] gotten closer to someone
[ ] streaked
[x] cried over someone
[x]broken up with a gf or bf?
[x] given up something important to you
[x] talked on the phone all night
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] made a total fool of myself
[x] met great people

ive had a very up and down 2006 and its been hard and i got a feeling its going to hurt alot more before it gets better but im hope that it will get better...